the song of my life during cuti sekolah ( SO FAR )

I can't go any further then this
I want you so badly, it's my biggest wish

I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day yes, i'm really missin' missin' you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl, wuz up, it use to be just me and you
I spent my time just thinkin thinkin thinkin bout you
Every single day, yes i'm really missin missin you
And all those things we use to use to use to do
Hey girl wuz up, wuz up, wuz up, wuz up

Meet me halfway, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Girl,i travel round the world and even sail the seven seas
Across the universe I go to other galexies
Just tell me where you want, just tell me where you wanna to meet
I navigate myself myself to take me where you be
Cause girl I want, i, i, I want you right now
I travel uptown (town) I travel downtown
I wanna to have you around (round) like every single day
I love you alway..way


Can you meet me half way
Right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

Let's walk the bridge, to the other side
Just you and I (just you and I)
I will fly, i'll fly the skies, for you and I (for you and I)
I will try, until I die, for you and i, for you and i, for for you and i,
For for you and i, for for you and i, for you and i

Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Can you meet me half way (yup yup)
Meet me half way, right at the boarderline
That's where i'm gonna wait, for you
I'll be lookin out, night n'day
Took my heart to the limit, and this is where i'll stay
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish
I can't go any further then this
I want you so bad it's my only wish

guess what song .....

i wanted to complete a crossword puzzle.... but damn, no pencil at sight .... this house no pencil ar... so i went to my untouched bag... since 8th december :P ... and i took my pencil box ... as i wass searching 4 my pencil picit... i came across a small note. ... a note i used to read evrytime b4 each of my paper during SPM ....
" DHIJEE...... gud luck da " ..... i began crying ... i miss you .. my best friend ...

and... merry christmas ppl ...

:: 25th December 2009.... 12.01 a.m. ... ::

from 8 december till 17 december

well... honestly, i dont know what to say about my life after the dreadful SPM ..
.... except..... BOOOOORRRRIIIINNNNGGGG.
its official that since 8th december, i've never went to the movies...

beach .. once.... thank god that was like a bliss... and i and my bros curi-curi found our way tru the jungle to 3rd bay ... while dad calling and lecturing tru the cellphone, i wonder why got connection in the middle of the jungle.
anyways... technically we, carelessly, bravely, and recklessly ran tru the muddy pathways with roots all over the place (wearing slippers) till a journey which was supposed to be 15 minutes to there ended in like... 5 minutes? .. so fast ar...
anyways ... the 3rd bay.... cekaplah... the sand was white.... like in the pirates of the Caribbean movie where jack sparrow got abandoned on an island.... tat white color... and the scenery was nice... and abandoned.... except a bunch of guys and gals bathing naked in the horizon ... :P .... i didnt see anything!!
my cousin and her fiance was there anyway .... waiting at second bay.. the picnic was there... and i fought with a monkey which stole a bunch of uni gal's KFC... my auntie made me do it... the monkey almost jumped at me... damn ...
and 4 da 1st time... i tasted a sundae.... i told the guy.. "bang.. tambah chocolate boleh tak)" ... and he filled the cup full with chocolate !! .... nice.... and we spent a whole day there... doing stuff...

besides... i passed my driving test( the ujian ber komputer) ,,,,
and now i have nothing to do ... thank god 4 my best friend who contacts me all the time .... appreciate it da...

so .... guys... have fun ... and sesiapa yang boring sangat ... call me....




byes

I LOVE RAISING THE WHITE FLAG

hi ...
anyways ... these are one of the nite where i spent my nights thinking of what went wrong ... so i opened my inbox... and i was going tru one of my e-mails.... then i read smething that totally made my emo-crap feeling dissapear..
so ... i dedicate this post to my friend who brought me back to the 'jalan yang benar' by sending me that e-mail... shahran ..

the title... LOVE & EGO... catchy huh :)

'Sometimes love is for a moment, sometimes love is for a lifetime. Sometimes a moment is a lifetime.'

Once upon a time there was an island,
Where all the feelings lived.

One day there was a storm in the sea
and the island was about to get drowned.
Every feeling was scared but Love made a boat to escape .
Every feeling boarded the boat..

Only 1 feeling was left.
Love got down to see who it was..
It was EGO©.
Love tried and tried but ego wasn't moving also.
the water was rising..

Every one asked love to leave him and come in the boat, but love was
made to love.

At last all the feelings escape and Love dies with ego on the island..

Love Dies because of EGO!

So, Kill Ego And Save Love.....

One Message to our friends:-

'Argument wins the situations but loses the person. So when argue with your loved ones, remember that situations is never more important than your loved ones.....'


so i raised the white flag.... whats the use of winning if it will only destroy US.... >?????? .... lols...

nites...

thanks 4 being sceptical and cynical....
siapa yang makan cili, dia yang terasa pedasya ....
aku yang menyuap kamu cili tersebut, maka memang padan muka aku kau begitu,
sistem tubuhku huru hara,
jantungku berdengup tanpa irama,
badanku lemah ditiup angin angin kesedihan,
semuanya salah aku. salah aku .... salah ak. . .. salah ... sal..... sa.. s.....

time is running out... -muse- ... entah kenapa aku tiba2 teringin nak post ....
anyways ...
SPM 1 week 5 days to go ... die lah
6 days to lepak in skool :(
and and.... according to maybe trustable and authoritised sources .... after SPM ....
i oly have 2 weeks of freedom b4 my damn NS .... thats heartbreaking mann .... dahlah i tak nak pergi ... now i cant take my license b4 that.... haish ...
thanks to Kerajaan Malaysia, i'll be celebrating my birthday in the jungle..... yay(sarcastic) .... balik terus result keluar... but i dnt knw which batch i am in but according to that source ..."kalau you dah isi borang tu kat sekolah " that means probably 1st batch la.... " nice la...
and the dilemma of my personal problems .... which i'm so desperately trying to understand and solve...
will it last...
will i suceed...
will i survive....
??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????

First Monday Of Quarantine

hey guys,
it seems like i havent posted stuff for a couple of months i guess
besides the lack of time that i have, i suddenly find everything that is going on around me too personal to post...
so, my life is only focused on merely 2 things at the preset moment

anyways, since my last post.
i've watched
angels and demons
terminator salvation
transformers 2
and harry potter and the half prince thingy
its definitely the most times i've went to the cinema in a few years

and now,
the skool has been closed down due to the H1N1 outbreak
i didnt feel happy at all .... frankly... i'd rather sit in skool
but i have to admit it has its pros and cons
and SMK cenderawasih pengetua said that got 3 cases in Perkampungan Cenderawasih. . .shit la

and my uncle's close frend just got murdered a few days back
uncle segaran,
he was a family friend,
i knew him very well ... i good lad , he was . . too bad he had to die this way
4 those who never knew him, he was the chief cook for the Sri Mariamman temple, Kemunting, kuantan and he has been in catering 4 weddings and whatever occasion
The thing is ..... he lived so close to our house ... and he got murdered... so my parents were like "lock the door at all times"

anyways.... thats all 4 now...
cya

EXAM WEEK!!!

i cant write much ... so just the short version ...

1. exam sucked
BM... BI .... Maths .. ok la
other subjects... down the drain ...

2. i am SICK....
macam kena sumpah .... cough .. flu (hingus macam emas) ... sakit tekak..
couldnt concentrate when answering the damn paper ..... couldnt study
so damn worried bout the deal...

3. the peasant fell for the princess ,,,,, and the mortal fell for the angel...
aku giler gembira,,,,

so... bye

Coretan 9 Mei

Pada 9 mei 2009, telah berlangsungnya satu perayaan Hindu yang dipanggil Chitra Paurnami.
Perayaan ini diadakan pada bulan setiap bulan penuh dalam bulan Chitirai dalam kalendar hindu.

Sebenarnya perayaan tersebut bermula 9 hari (i think) sebelum bulan penuh.
Pada pagi Chitra Paurnami, semua orang yang telah memasang hajat akan membawa susu ke kuil untuk upacara sembahyang .... the prayers goes on till the evening.

At that night, it is said that Goddess Amman will visit the town. so, she uses a chariot as her mode of transportation. during the festivel, the ratham / theer (chariot) is pulled by fellow devotees.
and this year, aku join sekali ....
the people who i know who pulled the chariot with me... my bros(biasalah), visnu, visnu's fren(kalaivani form 1 SMART 's bro), arvind, devagar, yughesh, and some other ppl.

What actually happened.....
1. kena tarik barefooted (no shoes allowed)
2. hujan at 7.45 PM and ribut at 11.15 pm

Sejauh mana?
From kemunting amman temple (5.45 pm ) ~~~ Cenderawasih tunas manja (6.15 PM)~~~~lalu kubur cina~~~ Vinayagar Temple (8.00 PM till 9.15 PM)~~~ naik bukit ubi ~~~~ Murugan Temple (9.30)~~~Indera Mahkota junction ~~~ (9.45) U-TURN ~~~turun bukit~~~~ masuk junction hotel brumatsu (10.15) ~~~~ Klinik Pesakit luar(10.45)~~~~u-TURN kat junction near hotel champagne~~~ ECM (11.35)~~~~~Jalan depan the store/ocean (11.45)~~~ Depan Courts Mammoth ~~~~ Depan Kuantan Parade~~~ Belakang Telekon ~~~ Junction depan Celcom ~~~~ SAmpai kuil kemunting semula (1.15 am)

all the while we were barefooted... soaking wet..... our hands ached.... blisters at the soles of the feet...

and we actually had fun

weekly post....

dah seminggu berlalu ...

and aku nak inform .... CHEW YEE TAK JADI PINDAH..... .... gile happy...
Monday..... I dapat tau pasal satu benda buruk berlaku kpd kawan rapat aku ...
dia tak tau pasal benda tu.... kawan dier cite.... aku damn bengang...
nak sangat belasah budak tu..... tapi kawan dia tak nam bagitau nama budak
tu...
Tuesday.... Ari paling sedih dalam hidup aku... mengalahkan tahap kesedihan yang di
alami sebelum ni ....
Wednesday...Aku involved ASAT, ASSEMBLY BIASA, + Mesyuarat Agong KOPERASI ... damn
tiring....
Thursday....Considered as the most happiest day of my life in 2 weeks.... dah la
lotery sekolah .... a few teachers tak masuk kelas... best giler lepak
dengan kawan rapat aku...
Friday...... Hari ni ...

..... my life is giler giler koya...... xoxoxoxooxoxo

Peningalan.......

halo.... tujuan aku post blog awal2 pagi buta ni utk maklumkan korang yg salah satu kawan baik aku nak belar dari SMART ni dah....
i wont say her name..... she might want this issue to be confidential.... but i will add it in once i've received confirmation....
i honestly gonna miss her so badly..... and her JAY CHOU....

BTW, esok hari runding cara....aku tak nak parents aku datang.....
sebenarnya aku ak cite pown kat diorang yg esok ade...tapi ... SMS SEKOLAH yang terlampau sadis tu dah hantar sms kat ayah aku ...

so basically, kalo ari isnin aku tak datang sekolah .... percayalah bahawa aku mungkin dah meninggalkan dunia yang fana ini.... please come to my funeral.... huhu.... :p

so bye.....nak gi sekolah dah ni...

MInggu Pelik

MAAF.... POST INI TERPAKSA DIPADAMKAN KERANA DI MINTA KAWAN RAPAT....
HARAP MAKLUM.....

Moral Folio

Alamak ... folio aku tak siap lagi!!!!!
bodoh betol la.....
ni gambar kitaorang



so.. gotta go do it...ASAP....

Choral...

Ade satu pertandingan tu....

Nama nya Choral speaking....
Tahun lepas SMART dpt no 3..... perempuan belaka sedih ...
SABS dapat no 1..... adikku and his geng masuk + qian wen

tapi tahun ni...
sehari sblm cuti...
tiba2 pn wong bee bee heret org form1 and form2 and form4 masuk....
Miss Mengada pown masuk..... Malangnya adikku pown masuk.... kacau line jer...
so waktu cuti pun ade training... aku guna alasan nak jumpe adikku tapi sebaliknya aku borak ngan miss mengada...
lepas cuti... seminggu takde training...
minggu lepas... diorang training maut....setiap hari stayback.... ade jugak la kadang2 aku gi jengok2.. saje nak jumpe miss mengada and kacau kash and her geng and borak wid the guys...
but benda yg aku tak puas hati.... ialah
bila diorang training kat Dewan Al-Falah.... budak2 lelaki yg tak matang ni .... selalu gi backstage....
masalahnye... SIR CHAN yg amat baik kadang2 dah gi letak benda2 tajam yg pelik dan berbahaya.... kalau terpijak.... kalo kena muka.... gone la....
pastu budak2 ni tak pernah perasan.... cikgu susun meja kat atas backstage tu dah lebih 5 thn .... tapi papan yg support lebih kurang 180 meja besi tu lebih kurang 2 inci jer...... damn nipis... kalo jatuh ..... confirm mati .... kalo dinesh mati... takpe la...
so, aku pown nasihat la kasya suroh bagitau diorang... jangan buat ape2...
tpi diorang tak dnegar... akhirnya.... aku pun ambik tali dan ikat pintu gril backstage.... pastikan binatang2 tu tak masuk....

anyways... they managed to get 3rd placing in the competition... Alor akar won number one... (my cousin won !!!)
but there are a few ppl who i notice to be excellent and willing to waste time and get malu to help the helpless monkeys ...
1. kasya.... always menjerit, melalak, to get things in order...
2. Sandhya.... always giving her opinion ....to make things better...

this 2 ppl are the paling menonjol sekali .... mabey got summore ppl.... jgn marah if i never insert ur names...

finally.....SMART was able to put on a good show.... but they could do better with more disclipline and time ...

Coretan Mingguan......

dis week was an average one.....

monday.....sibuk....
tuesday.... bosan...
wednesday....worried + rindu....
thursday..... the saddest day in my life so far...
friday.... today la.....

results..... everyday i worry bout dis .....
BM 82... my best in 2 years.....
BI 78.... i love miss kong.... improved....
Sejarah....80.... i was shivering when taking the results.... dahlah cikgu tu kawan ayah aku.... thanks Miss mengada 4 nasihating me .... aku insaf..
modern Maths...90.. tribute to Cikgu Azora.... always nvr enter her class...
Phy.... 70.... maintain final year....
Chem... 63 ... loads of silly mistake..... shit!!!
BIo .... 65 .... actually i was proud i passed this one... i didnt read a thing!
Moral.... 61... my worst downfall ever.... last year got 92... damn sad....


anyways .... afiq wasnt here dis week ... sum camp.... firous... nasyid... amalen debate... actually.... this week was quite boring ... but the best thing.... aku dah rapat ngan budak laki moral form 5 again ... mabey coz amalen takde.... aku lepak wid kevin all the time .... nice aso lepak wid that fellow... lagi aku dah rapat ngan stephen and suresh... and it seems that in the absence of amalen .. i feel like i was in form 2 again ....

wednesday.... i get to train a group 4 school comp.... i dunno wat to say...
chew yee tak pilih utk aku ... neda maran and luveen are useless.... but lucky... chow and chuah saved my ass, at least got 2 state comp ppl in my group...

thursday,,,, the saddest day in my life.... only one person never layan me... i felt like i've worth nothing..... i was damn sad... wanted to cry....

Friday.... dad came to skool .... saw cikgu ct zaleha...
she said that .... i'm very good student ... but always bc.... alot teacher report... and i never sleep in class.... and i must do alot latihan ... at home i kena lecture nicely.... luckily my dad didnt saw Miss Mengada..... he wanted to actually... i didnt let...

anyways..... Sandhya won Public Speaking..... even my ttn teacher was talking bout her...... i dunno y i felt kinda proud.... ...
.


demikianla laporan mingguan hamba....

Waitin 4 kad sakit

I sucked in my physics and sejarah,,,

really2 think gonna fail....
gonna get kad sakit .....
then that evening... commit suicide....

anyways.... moral folio not yt finish.....
gonna get it 4 that aso....
pity cikgu raja ...... seorang raja yg terpaksa tension sebab pelajarnya tak guna

by the way.... my closest frend is going 4 her public speaking competition on 1st april.... wish her luck 4 me pls.....

Dis Week

Since Monday......
I almost died....
must at least past all the subjects in dis damn exam ...
coz if fail ... then skool give red card!!!
but 1 week holiday aso i never study .... missing sumone..
so i began what i do normally during exam... LAST MINUTE STUDY....
everyday... cant go on9.... so cant post blog .. till today..

Exams sucked till the core ....
Bio and sejarah was my worst .... i hope i'd die ....
fortunately, +maths was answerable.... boleh jawab lar...
b4 i hentam 10 questions ... now i hentam 3...
but bio and sej mostly i hentam ... especially essay and experiment...
others boleh tahan la... except the fact that i silap do chemical equation for group 1 experiment...... damned ...

frend throughout the week ....
all of them bc study... tak layan me ...
afiq was hungry all the time ...singing during exam and he managed to answer well...
firdhaus dah putus asa... abrar and syahrul are on a mission ...
amalen and kevin communicating at every chance....
amilah helped me in last minute study in BIO ...( thankx milah)
Chew yee semangat stjohn masih kuat walau exam...
form 2 non- muslim gang are gossiping bout me...
stephen, suresh and kevin .. i aso dunno y .. talking damn sarcastic..
scar... form 2 machaa.... became my gang when i lepak in form 2 block....
and very very thanks to sandhya who managed to motivate this helpless soul to at least do last minute study although she's damn bc wid choral speaking and public speaking.... thank you :-)....

Anyways i found out that my bro mencarut to my closest frend in this world.... she told me that it happened... i felt like destroying him... but she said no need....
i am very dissapointed in my bro....

god bless all who helped me in this damned week .....
JAI HIND!!!

Fruit Plus..... !

My first blog in Malay

Attention to all Indians and manusia yang prihatin....

JANGAN MAKAN FRUIT PLUS....
Bukannya sebab nak boikot Israel....
tetapi .... sebab... fruit plus ade lembu!!!!

comfirm ade yang tak terkejut.....
biar saya jelaskan kepada kawan2 yang beragama islam

bagi orang-orang yang beragama hindu.... MEMAKAN DAGING ATAU TULANG ATAU MANA-MANA BAHAGIAN BADAN LEMBU ADALAH DIKIRA HARAM dari segi adat dan kepercayaan hindu....

Saya malas nak menjelaskan kenapa..... Next time la

bagi yang masinh tak percaya.... tengoklah gambar yg saya scan ini ....
ataupun .... beli lah gula-gula tu sendiri.....







Antara gula-gula lain yang mempunyai gelatin..... fruitella, sugus, dll

Sekian Terima Kasih

World Earth Day

Actually, I firstly heard of this thing in the radio..... Hitz. FM morning crew....
3 weeks ago.....
Pls support this programme,.... just turm yous lights and electrical appliances off for only one hour.... at 8.30 pm to 9.30 pm on 28th March....
You'll have no idea how many million kilowatts of electrical energy that can be reduced in the world during that one hour...
Supportlah..... sure nice one ..... being part of a worldwide programme by just turning off your lights!

Words Of Wizzdome

Here are some inspiring word from a great dude, Mahatma Gandhi

To believe in something and not to live it, is dishonest.

"First they ignore you, then they laugh at you, then they fight you, then you win."

A man is but the product of his thoughts what he thinks, he becomes.

A religion that takes no account of practical affairs and does not help to solve them is no religion.

A weak man is just by accident. A strong but non-violent man is unjust by accident.

All the religions of the world, while they may differ in other respects, unitedly proclaim that nothing lives in this world but Truth.

An error does not become truth by reason of multiplied propagation, nor does truth become error because nobody sees it.

An ounce of practice is worth more than tons of preaching.

“If we practice and eye for an eye and a tooth for a tooth, soon the whole world will be blind and toothless.

Anger and intolerance are the enemies of correct understanding.

Anger is the enemy of non-violence and pride is a monster that swallows it up.

Be the change that you want to see in the world.

The best way to find yourself is to lose yourself in the service of others.

Honest disagreement is often a good sign of progress.

If I had no sense of humor, I would long ago have committed suicide.

Anything we do may be insignificant, but it is most important that we do it

Power is of two kinds. One is obtained by the fear of punishment and the other by acts of love. Power based on love is a thousand times more effective and permanent then the one derived from fear of punishment


I shall not fear anyone on earth, I shall only fear god

Nice huh.... i hope at least one of his quotes will inspire you in your life.... :-)

My First Sajak

Honestly, I suck in creative writing.....
Afiq is so damn creative........ i dont know from where he got his brain

anyways.....
This is the first poem i made....
i know it sucks.....
but still
i wanna post this......

so here it goes....

BILA BERJAUHAN,
RINDUKU TERHADAP MU MAKIN BERGANDA,
BILA KU HADAP MALAM KESUNYIAN,
LETERTAWA SUARAMU MENGGAMIT RINDUKU,
KABUS PAGI YANG HENING MEMBEKU,
MENAMBAHKAN RINDUKU TERHADAP PELUKAN HANGATMU,
BANTAL KATIL YANG KERAS MEMBATU,
MENGEMBALIKAN MEMORIKU TERHADAP NIKMAT MEMBARINGKAN KEPALAKU DI PEHAMU,
SENYUM GEMBIRA DAN TANGISEDIHMU UNTUK MENDEWASAKAN AKU,
TAKKAN HILANG DARI LOKAR MEMORIKU WALAU BERADA DI PUNCAK DUNIA,
MAHUPUN DI DASAR LURAH MARIANAS,
KERNA KEJAUHAN AKAN MENDEKATKAN CINTA,
YANG TAK MUNGKIN HILANG,
WALAU SELEPAS DUNIA YANG FANA INI TELAH KU TINGGALKAN.
KERNA KAU ADALAH IBUKU YANG SATU

guess who this poem is for?...... :P

Handphone...... Sms ... Why cannot?

this was the most weird thing that happened in my life.....
i never realised they did this to me....
so sad....


I smsed someone.....
I am very close to her....
We are gud frends.... close frends


Suddenly.... one day.... my parents brought me to a restaurant alone...
I didn't understood what happened....
They ordered Nasi Goreng...
Suddenly.... amma asked.... " Who is XXX ?"
I was shocked
I laughed..... i said my frend....
My dad asked if normal frend .... y sms so much?...
I didnt knew wat to say.... they were the typical type of parents .... the type who are not cool if they knew their son has a fren who is a gurl....
so i said.... She is under some commitee board and i'm the leader... she's my assistant... i have to contact her...
Almost instantaneosly my mum asked..... isn't she your gf....
then suddenly, she reveals information bout her..... her parents.. house address....
i felt damn cold..... i thought...... " damn ... i'm a terrorist now huh ?..... "

i saw many cop movies..... so i knew they were interiogating me... i remained calm...
guess what happened next.... i told my mum .... ....
i said.... i dont have a girl frend...
they said... dun lie la.....
i laughed...
i said.... if i have a girlfriend..... i would have told my mum first... and i dont even have enough money to get anyting for her.... you never gave me allowance!....
i thought they understood boecause they changed the topic!.....

Arghhhh SELAMAT!!!!!

Hahaha.... my first blog....

Hi i'm dhijee....
Since Ancient times... i wanted to start a blog...
but i had no idea wat the heck was a blog...
i thought it was sumkind of damn diary for ppl to show off their personal feelings and crap....
but i soon found out... wat it actually is ....
and i decided to make one for myself....
Thank you afiq and Chew yee... for teaching me the definition of blogging